在这辽阔的世界里,有谁能了解我心?
在这狭窄的房间里,没人能解开我心。
隐藏着郁闷的心情,却不能表露出来。
带着多少的不开心,却只能强颜欢笑。
为有他能了解我心,
在他面前我可以大声哭泣。
为有他能解开我心,
让我可以继续的向前迈步。
解我心
February 9th, 2010好开心
February 5th, 2010老婆!生日快乐!
February 5th, 2010Chinese Character 中文
February 3rd, 2010See the ??? below, it’s actually my inspired thoughts written in Chinese but wordpress couldn’t translate it proper when posting and it all became ‘???’. Now my inspiration is gone. Maybe it will come back again soon, I did jot down some of it in my iPhone.
So I search the net to see how to allow my blog to accept Chinese characters and hopefully the solution works.
我可以写中文吗?希望可以。
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February 3rd, 2010Life is like a box of chocolate
February 1st, 2010Things are happening so fast and in the blink of an eye, it Feb already. At times things seems to be getting better but other times it seems to get worst. I’m confused and is unsure how to deal with it anymore. I can only pray.
Praying to some may seems like a lame excuse of not actively doing something, but when everything you do seems to make things worst, you soon realize that you should take a step back and let God come into the foreground instead. Because He knows better than I do, so why do I keep insisting my way?
2 things on my wish list, less obsession and more dependent on me. A wishful thinking? Maybe. But at least I’ve made my point. Oh, I did wish for truth and openness, and not sure if it will go down as just another hope.
In the movie Forest Gump, the famous line is “life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you gonna get”. And I guess it’s 100% right. Life is so unpredictable. Someday you can be in estasy, another in complete dispair. Sometimes you feel so loved, another you feel like the world is against you. But do we let our situations or feelings control us? The obvious answer is no. The big question is how? May God grant each of us the wisdom to overcome.
The result of not overcoming can be deadly. Some might go for the worst and take their own life, some may go crazy, some may just wallop up in a corner every night and cry, yet still some may just live a life without feelings. Some are good at covering up, others not so. Whatever it is, know that you can never deal with it alone. And if you are, like me, running out of options, than seek help from the Almighty God, who was and is and is to come.
Reality vs Fantasy
January 30th, 2010You know something? Reality will always loose to fantasy. I’m sure you know why. Reality is harsh and usually unacceptable, but fantasy is sweet and without faults. So if I am in reality, I will always come 2nd best to the one in fantasy. It’s tough to accept, but is something I perhaps need to face up with.
I’ve been having lots of struggle lately, and struggling to cope with this fact is one major issue. I told myself that I cannot loose to fantasy, because I’m real! There is life breathing in me and I can react according to different situations, so I cannot loose to something that is unreal. But how wrong I am.
I soon realize that in the fantasy world, everything is perfect. Yes, even faults in the real world becomes a good thing in the fantasy world. So I am in for a shock, and reality shows that I am not only imperfect, but a burden sometimes. Can someone be deeply in love with someone in both worlds? We may be lead to believe it can happen and that love in the reality and fantasy don’t cross. I’m not so sure about that. What if the fantasy became reality? What if the fantasy turns out to be something as real as it can be? It does complicates matter a lot more but we will never know who than is the ultimate winner. The fear is that fantasy turns reality will triumph over the old reality, as the old reality is boring, a burden, and reminds of the unhappy pass.
Are you living in reality or fantasy? Or both? I hope happiness and love can be found in the real world, as that is what is suppose to last through the ages.
Help!
January 29th, 2010Today I broke down again. Just can’t help myself and with breakthrough not forthcoming, and triggered by some events, I just cannot stop.
My heart is burning with pain, but who will understand me? I’ve been seen as been selfish, thoughtless, unaccomodating, not understanding, helpless, the list goes on.
How long can I go on longer without breaking down again, how much longer before I go beyond breaking down? I don’t know.
Praying for Breakthroughs
January 28th, 2010It’s been a tough few days, thank God I don’t have to face it alone. God has been gracious and things are beginning to be on the up. Or at least that is what I hope will be. To be frank, I do feel that there is a wall divide, and it is up to me to break it down. With His help, I hope it will not be long, as the longer it goes the worst it is going to become.
So the next few weeks are going to be key, as I commit the situation to God daily and hope for small breakthroughs everyday. Keep on praying…
Starting 2010 Afresh
January 26th, 2010What a wonderful place! Thank God for His wonderful creation. I needed some time alone with God with no distraction so that I can re-commit my life to Him afresh in this new year. Sitting admist this serene environment, one can’t help but be amazed by why God can do.
This morning, I did what I had not done for a longest time, spending 2 distracted hours with God. Here you can scream, shout, sing, pray, and even a little dance with not much distraction. And I think it is time for me to start 2010 on a right note.
Seated beside this tree, I re-committed my life to God in a fresh way. Giving up myself as I am simply nothing. Nothing I did or do are right, and I need His touch, His wisdom, His help. Here I realise that I am further away from God than I could admit, and how it must have broken His heart. Sorry Lord, for the tears you must have shed for me. And here I realise that I need to have an even tighter grib on a hand and never let it go. I will not give up, and with God’s grace, I will be able to see through this situation and may God be the Glory.
Thanks be to God, who always leads us to triumph.










